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are any of my watchers even active anymore? i feel like even if i were to start posting again nobody would care (well maybe 2 of you).

like i dont know what to do i really wanted to try to come back but im pretty sure nobody cares;; i tried posting things and nobody really reacted, i tried to write journals asking for ideas or requests and nobody said anything...i dont know what to do? I feel like dA has just become so quiet and people dont really talk anymore unless youre popular.

So yeah i still have a short time left for my premium membership which means i wont be deleting, much as i kind of want to right now. Who knows, maybe motivation will return before then and I can get back to posting frequently like i used to.

I hate to sound whiny but yeah I really just miss how fun dA used to be. This used to be the highlight of things for me, it was really nice to log and have people wanting to talk to me and eager to see what I had to put out. I know that I've deleted a shit ton of things and I havent drawn seriously for along time but, its hard when you feel like no one cares, you know?

ahh well, still got a few weeks before school starts up again. Its my senior year...i cant believe ive been here since 7th grade. surprised i havent deleted yet.

Anyways, I doubt anybody will ahve read this, but if you did, thanks, and I hope you stick by me. I've been in a bad place for a while, and Im hoping to break through some time soon.

Ending Windows session...

okay so ive been feeling really motivated to draw lately

SO IM GOING TO TRY TO

it might not be until the weekend tho, but u never know

the last few weeks have basically just been me freaking out over school and getting ready to audition for the national guard band. fun stuff right

right

SO YEAH IM GOING TO TRY TO DRAW BUT I DONT KNOW

i have been so inactive on here i had so many deviations in my inbox or whatever but tbh i kind of just deleted most of them

things have just been really hectic for me and its been really shitty. i have zero motivation to draw and when i do i cant seem to be able to actually get anything worth continuing down on paper.

i feel like the only real reason i havent deleted my account on here yet is because  i have this tiny glimmer of hope that my art will pick up and people will be interested in it again like they use to be. funny how my art used to be so shitty by comparison and people used to love to talk to me and were active watchers but now that my art is at least half-way decent suddenly everythings gone silent.

thats probably shitty of me to say but im just very tired and this is the longest art slump ive ever had. every now and again i might be able to scribble down something but i cant seem to really make my digital art look good so i dont bother posting.

i also dont delete because i still have 10 months of premium left...and that would be a waste. although rn im wasting it as well so whats the point? i dont know.

rather than delete my whole account i think at some point i might just move everything to scraps or something i dont know.

you all are so quiet....

so I was wondering
what are your guys' 2014 New Year resolutions?


mine are going to be along the lines of not giving a fuck anymore because Im pretty sure my life will improve if I stop thinking about what other people think. I also am going to force myself to spend more time drawing and reading because I haven't really done that for fun without worrying about school or anything in a while. Reading, especially.

SO YEAH you guys should tell me what your plans are for 2014 resolutions-wise :v

2013 has been a really cruddy year for me, in terms of being bullied, being extremely stressed with school, and shit happening at home. My one real wish with 2014 is that things get better, and I won't feel so alone and hurt all the time.

and concerning deviantART, I'm going through my gallery right now and moving a lot to scraps...I might store things, but I might not. I'm definitely going to try and get some art out, while working on developing my style more(I feel like I'm heading in a decent direction so far).

ALL IN ALL, HAPPY NEW YEAR, I HOPE YOUR YEAR STARTS OFF WITH A WONDERFUL BANG.
unless youre a fellow sherlockian because in that case I hope you have your shock blanket ready